You say you do not like to live. You feel tired of this
life and this body. Unwelcome thoughts, bad thoughts,
disturb you and make you unhappy. But life is thoughts,
not body. The body is there when you are asleep. You
do not then feel the need to end your life. The moment
you are awake, you begin to think again. In actuality,
nobody is satisfied with his lot. Nobody feels completely
happy in this world. You know the great position and
wealth of so and so; yet when he saw me, he told me
he was a very unhappy man.
Why should you be unhappy? You are neither too tall,
nor too fat. You are quite healthy. You can read, you
can write. Think of the poor creatures, the paralyzed,
the lepers, the disabled. The paraplegic or leper knows
that he is progressing toward a sure death and is likely
to die in a worse state than he is in. Yet, there are
thousands like these, silently dragging on through their
days.
Why not compare your lot with the dumb illiterate
millions in this country? You are most fortunate. You
live with, and move in, the surroundings of a Master.
What is there in the Himalayas and the jungles? Did
you not see the picture Tarzan, which depicted the
jungle life full of strife and struggles? In spite of having
bad thoughts, you do not indulge in bad actions;
therefore, what higher life can you live than this?
It is normal to have bad thoughts; so long as you do
not interpret them into actions, you thereby get an
opportunity to exercise control. If no thoughts assail
you, then what is the difference between you and a
stone which has no thoughts at all?
Cease the mental tension. Train your mind to pass
over thoughts. Do not give countenance to them until
such time that you can surrender the mind itself. No
one is doing it. When the mind is surrendered, there
is no question of happiness and unhappiness. Because
of the thoughts of the past lives, sanskaras are spent
away. They come and go. Pay no attention to them.
Mind is like a wound-up alarm clock. It will ring at the
appointed time, but only so long as the winding is there.
Let it ring and run its course, but take care to not wind
it again by indulging in bad actions.
Still, if you want to die, die in my naad (infatuation) by
holding on to me firmly. There lies salvation. That is
real dying. Worldly death is not the thing. However,
nobody has so far captured me. If one really catches
me, I try to free myself. But so far, I have had no
opportunity of freeing myself. On the contrary, it is I
who have been trying to catch hold of you people.
Remember this much: the whole world is nothing but
a zero, and everything connected with it is without
sum and substance. Mind is the universe. Mind is the
man, the woman, the beast.
