You say you do not like to live. You feel tired of this life and this
body. Unwelcome thoughts, bad thoughts, disturb you and make you
unhappy. But life is thoughts, not body. The body is there when you
are asleep. You do not then feel the need to end your life. The
moment you are awake, you begin to think again.
In actuality, nobody is satisfied with his lot. Nobody feels
completely happy in this world.... You are most fortunate. You live
with, and move in, the surroundings of a Master.... In spite of having
bad thoughts, you do not indulge in bad actions; therefore, what
higher life can you live than this?
It is normal to have bad thoughts; so long as you do not interpret
them into actions, you thereby get an opportunity to exercise control.
If no thoughts assail you, then what is the difference between you and
a stone, which has no thoughts at all?
Cease the mental tension. Train your mind to pass over thoughts. Do
not give countenance to them until such time that you can surrender
the mind itself. No one is doing it. When the mind is surrendered,
there is no question of happiness and unhappiness. Because of the
thoughts of the past lives, sanskaras are spent away. They come and
go. Pay no attention to them. Mind is like a wound-up alarm clock.
It will ring at the appointed time, but only so long as the winding is
there. Let it ring and run its course, but take care to not wind it
again by indulging in bad actions.
Still, if you want to die, die in my naad (infatuation) by holding
on to me firmly. There lies salvation. That is real dying. Worldly
death is not the thing. However, nobody has so far captured me. If
one really catches me, I try to free myself. But so far, I have had no
opportunity of freeing myself. On the contrary, it is I who have been
trying to catch hold of you people.
Remember this much: the whole world is nothing but a zero, and
everything connected with it is without sum and substance. Mind is
the universe. Mind is the man, the woman, the beast.
