LEAVE IT TO HIM

 
Surely when your heart is full of His Love it always overflows, and if you don't allow it to overflow but try to seal it within, then it has a good chance of bursting. So it's best to allow it to overflow either through letters or through conversations with Baba lovers at your end, or with your darling family.

I am not surprised to find in your letter a note of sheer frustration in trying to love Him the way He would want us to. But you should know that He doesn't want us to get desperate in wanting to love Him, and He can be loved the way you want to love Him; but the way He wants us to love Him entails dying every moment for Him in living for Him! But He doesn't demand this of us, for He knows that each one has his or her turn of loving Him the way He wants to be loved. Be patient, wait for your turn in the queue, and don't become desperate.

The time will come, the circumstances will face you, the opportunity will be given to you, and then you'll love Him with all your heart and soul to your heart's content.

Till such time try to be happy and loving under the circumstances and look after your duties and responsibilities in the best way possible. Do your best, honestly and sincerely, and leave to Him the rest. He will guide you and prompt you inwardly as to what is best and pleasing to Him. You can never please Him on your own; none can do so. Leave it to Him and He will make us do it. Don't feel bound to carry out whatever you may have heard from us all but feel free to live a life worthy of womanhood befitting a lover of Beloved Avatar Meher Baba.