ONE OF THOSE TRANSCENDENT MOMENTS

 
Maybe some of you remember those calendars that Richard Deane had printed up in the late 70's or early 80's. Above each month was a big color picture of Baba, different shots from His 1956 visit to the West. When I moved to Meherabad I put one of those calendars on the wall in our room, by the side of my desk.

One day I was sitting at my desk and feeling very low. It was an old familiar kind of "lowness" and I started examining it, trying to figure out where it came from and what it was about. After some time, I had a memory of feeling just that way when I was six years old. This made me sad, and I began to feel sorry for that little six-year-old, so confused and lost. And all of a sudden, I felt upset with Baba, and in my mind started asking Him, "Where were you when I was so helpless and confused? You say you love me — where were you when I was six years old?"

Just as I had this thought, I was startled by some sound at my side and I looked up. It was just a bird outside, but my glance fell on that calendar. There was Baba, standing near Coit Tower, smiling. And there was the San Francisco Bay. And what was that land mass beyond the bay, behind Baba? Oh my goodness, it's Marin County! Where I lived! Yes, where I lived. In 1956. When I was six years old.

It was one of those transcendent moments, beyond time. Baba reached right out of that calendar to tell me: "See, I was there, I was right there loving you all along."