I FEEL ESPECIALLY HAPPY THESE DAYS

 
It was the morning of November 3rd [1952]. Baba, radiant and lively as ever, was in the hall. He inquired after everyone's health....

Then Baba asked, "Who is worrying?" No one raised his hand. Baba said, "I am very happy to see that no one is worrying. Your faces look like those of bokas (large male cats — in the vernacular this means to look fit and hearty)."

Baba then pointed out the difference between worry and care as He told all, "Of course you must think seriously and be very careful about two things: remembering God, and the duty I have entrusted to you. So be careful, but do not worry."

Baba continued "As for me, I had no sleep and in a way I was worrying about the programs of the 7th, 8th, 9th, and the first move of the Fiery Free Life on November 14th. But in spite of these worries, I feel especially happy these days. I don't know why. There was a certain period at Sakori when I was also very happy. And in the New Life at the Hyderabad meeting (June 1951) I experienced immense happiness, although it was of a different nature.

"When I was in Bombay, some days after my contact with Babajan, I was experiencing the state of infinite suffering. I used to lie on a bench in Victoria Garden for 12 to 14 hours. During those days I had no sleep at all. I felt as if some electric motor had been set working within me 24 hours a day, and the impressions of all the worlds were operating in me. It was the most miserable and the most happy state! It was an individual experience, an individual happiness and an individual suffering. Nowadays the happiness that I derive is also personal and individual."