[Tavern-Talk] HEART TALK - Letters between Baba and Dr. Goher Irani - First Letter

[Tavern-Talk]

HEART TALK - Letters between Baba and Dr. Goher Irani - First Letter

This is the first offering in the series of letters from the Trust 
Archives between Baba and Dr. Goher.

These letters begin in January 1938 when, by Baba's order, Goher
wrote to Him frequently. As you will see, Baba usually replied to 
her via Adi K. Irani and sometimes she wrote to Adi rather than
directly to Baba. She was 21 years old.

A little background to this letter: Goher's mother, Khorshed, is
seriously ill in hospital and Goher is facing exams in a B.Sc course. 
prior to entrance into medicine. She is staying with the Dadachanji 
family in Dadar, Bombay.

A biography of Goher's life, written at her request and under her
guidance, is now in draft form and, when published, will answer
queries you have about her life that these letters may prompt!

Some adjustments have been made for readability.

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Boman Lodge
Vincent Road
Dadar
17th Jan '38

My ever beloved Lord Baba,

I am writing this letter after coming home from the hospital, for I am 
feeling very restless now after seeing mum in such a pitiable 
condition. Before this I scribbled in the hospital a few lines to Adi 
at the back of Katie's [Goher's sister] letter but I think the whole 
letter was meaningless for I did not clear myself well in there.

All that I want of you now my dear Baba is to save my mother from all 
this pain and misery which she has been suffering for the last 
fourteen months. Please Baba dear tell me what I should do in this 
critical condition. I am feeling very desperate for I have my Prelim 
exam on the 1st February on the one hand and my mum's sickness on the 
other. I am getting puzzled as regards my studies. Of course my 
beloved Lord it is silly of me to beg of you thus, when I know that 
you are with us protecting and loving us always and I have faith in 
you only, but please tell me what I should do. Order me my Holy One 
and I am ready to obey the strictest possible orders. Torture and pain 
me but relieve my mother of all the pains. She is suffering far too 
much and we cannot bear to see her thus. In Adi's letter I did not 
express myself well for I was in a hurry. I wanted to ask you 
concerning those orders you gave me last, that I would (in order not 
to break the promise due to ignorance) want to know whether I could 
stay with mum in the hospital till late and if need be stay with her 
the night; of course Katie can do all that in my stead but I am just 
asking in case of urgent need. My dear Lord my thoughts are of you 
every now and then. Please give me the peace of mind (that I am not 
experiencing now) to bear this pain and also to study and get through 
the exam. I am trying hard to study but cannot concentrate well. My 
mind gets distracted and then all of a sudden I begin to think of you 
and get back to study.

With Love
Yours in ever humble servitude
Gaoher

P.S. My dear and own Baba, I wanted to post this letter last night by 
the late-fee but missed the train. Anyway, the letter was written last 
night and my pleadings had reached You and You have answered to my 
call my dear Lord. I am yearning to bring my head to your Feet. For 
mum after spending a bad and restless night was not well until 
morning. Now by Your Blessings, an opening has occurred and the pus is 
let out, the pain is still there, but the doctor says she is out of 
the danger of being operated upon. My Lord I am thankful to You for 
having heard my prayers and shall always remain your servant.
Gaoher 

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Jai Beloved Baba!
Archives Team
Avatar Meher Baba P.P.C. Trust

Other Heart Talk letters can be selected at:
http://www.ambppct.org/archives/collections/written_materials/correspondence/heart_talk.htm

To learn more about the Avatar Meher Baba Trust Archives go to:
http://www.ambppct.org/archives

Heart Talk, Letter 319, 24 December 2009
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